I slept at hours so odd I don't even remember how many days have just passed. Until JM asked me just now "Hey, do you know how many days you skipped school?"
And I was like NO LOL.
Oh my. I'm turning old. Can't even remember things like this.
This is my face when I am dating my 4000 word essay
So anyway, I think I manage to submit my EE first draft today. Wait I have not. It's still sitting in my room. I've been aiming to finish every IA and get the EE over and done with by Friday (today) so that I can genuinely enjoy Valentine's day because Andrew is taking me out.
Turns out I didn't submit much IAs and for the EE, I am seriously contemplating a redo. Because I feel that my EE is utter crap.
So. Valentine's Day. Honestly I don't know why people over the Internet is making such a big deal out of this, complaining about their singledom or I don't know, claiming righteously that everyday should be Valentine's day blabla. I cannot stand people trying to demonstrate how noble they can be especially on social media because that is just plain show-off to me and I think it is purely unnecessary. And as for singledom, look, it isn't that bad.
Also I got roses. From Tim. It was really unnecessary and I don't see the point of him doing this since we're not together anymore, but he insisted.
It was very sweet of him and I am touched that he still thinks of me although I don't know if I should be happy about that. I also felt kinda sad that things have to turn out this way between us. And also because this is my blog and I am entitled to be brutally honest, I actually don't like flowers. Because I don't know what to do with them and they die eventually.
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Andrew took me out today ! He had a restaurant in mind already so that means I don't have to decide :'D no seriously I appreciate it because I hate making decisions even for those as simple as this.
We went to Morganfield's @ The Pavillion KL to have pork ribs hahaha. It's my first time eating them except those prepared chinese-style aka bahkuteh la haha. It was quite nice ! But it tasted so much like bagua hahaha the coincidence somemore, this year's Valentine's falls on the last day of CNY and hence it's also ChapGohMei - double Valentine's !
I noob, never ate western pork ribs before so Andrew had to teach me how to eat it #fail #paiseh. Something similar to this happened last time as well when we lunched at Nando's when he couldn't stand me stabbing the chicken ala caveman style so he just help me split it properly. I felt so much like a kid #megafail.
But I have to say that the portion at Morganfield's is really big. I couldn't finish half that rib but luckily Andrew is there so he finished it for me #thankgodforguys and made me finish the fries.
Also did I mention that there was a hot waiter hahahaha all the way I was teasing Andrew about it to see him get jealous. My daily entertainment haha. But seriously the waiter is really hot. Bill turned out as expected because its famous western food hahaha. Went to walk around a bit in Pavi after that and ate gelato too it was so good. We were planning to have pavlova initially just because I was craving for cake two days ago. But I was too full from ribs so gelato was just nice :)
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During dessert session I don't know how but I started talking about my life. And my Asian-ego. I told Andrew that my doubts about my career in life are governed by my asian mentality. Believe me or not (I realized it recently too haha) but I am actually very asian. I actually think that as the first child of the family I should definitely pursue a professional career.
Andrew thinks that my real passion lies, eventually, in art. That - I don't know myself for sure. I really don't. I think my state of mind now is the product of the duality I adopted in life. All my life I've been a science student while sustaining my art on my own. I am, no doubt, proud of this achievement - of being able to draw without formal art education - but now it comes to the point to decide if I really want to sustain my life the way I've always been accustomed to, or to pursue something that I didn't get the chance to do for the most of my life due to my hectic IB schedule. But my ego is too big, too proud. I still hold the belief that studying art is not a professional career - at least here in Malaysia.
"Do you know why you're made to study science when you're young? It's not because your parents aspire you to take up professional careers in the future. It's because they want you to have the flexibility of choice."
Andrew says that I have to stop saying I don't know - and start thinking about what I really want in life. And so I did. I want a career that can possibly enable me to work flexibly - preferably not those constrained to on-site presence. Illustration bears an awesome prospect nowadays. But still...sigh.
Also I told him that I will skin him alive if he doesn't do something related to business or finance or economics. Guy's talented in this field - he should totally make use of it.
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I honestly don't know why I decided to go out with Andrew. Don't get me wrong - it was an enjoyable experience and a rather fresh one - two people, not in a relationship, going on a date. I was aware that it's a Valentine's date and I am surprised that I actually get nervous when he started putting his hand around my shoulder - normal gesture I know, plus I had boyfriends before so I thought I'd be used to that. I actually started stammering and running out of words to say. I wonder if he felt the same. Maybe he can tell me one day when he discovers this blog hahaha.
